I’m back…but not how I expected!
I am back from Maternity leave today.
I’ve just spent the last 6 months in a completely different rhythm of life.
-Slower.
-Quieter.
-Wondering if I was mothering the “right” way
Most of my maternity leave I spent on the couch, breastfeeding my baby and staring out of the window across the beautiful Peruvian mountains.
It’s funny.
This is the life I dreamed of only 3 years ago.
-When I was running on empty
-When I was feeling burnt out.
-When I felt I had no more to give.
-When I lost my life savings in someone else’s dream.
You can read about that *here*
During that time I was praying for just two things:
- peace
- and happiness.
And I was really able to step into both during my maternity leave.
I feel so grateful.
I’ve been reflecting on how it feels to return to a job I love.
I feel excited.
I feel inspired.
I feel motivated.
I feel the spark of divine energy moving through me, ready to create.
But it wasn’t always this way.
When I was a primary teacher working in Southampton (in the South of England) 14 years ago, I used to DREAD going back to work at the end of the holidays.
On a Sunday afternoon my gut would twist into knots or anxiety.
I would dread my alarm clock going off on Monday morning.
I would pray to get through the day.
And the craziest thing?!
I THOUGHT THIS WAS NORMAL!!!
Now that I am doing the thing that I am on this planet to do, I don’t feel any of that.
On Sunday afternoon I feel INSPIRED by the week ahead.
When the alarm goes off…wait, who am I kidding…my baby wakes me up now. Well, what I want to say is that I feel EXCITED for the day to come.
And now when I sit down to set the day’s intentions, I wish there were MORE TIME in a day so I can create everything that I feel channeling down through me.
What a difference.
I feel so grateful.
But I’ve also noticed something I didn’t expect.
Clarity.
Not the kind that comes from overthinking or trying to “figure it all out”
but the kind that happens when life strips things back for you.
When you are shown what’s really important.
Because here’s what’s felt really obvious:
We wait far too long to choose what we actually want.
We stay in soul destroying jobs that drain us.
We tell ourselves it’s not the right time.
We wait until we feel more certain, more ready, more sure.
But none of that is true.
That’s just our mind looking for excuses not to take action.
Because the truth is:
Life moves quickly.
Things change.
And the space we have to spend our time in ways that don’t feel right is actually much smaller than we think.
If something in your life has been feeling off lately…
If there’s a part of you that knows you want something different — even if you can’t fully explain it yet…
You can trust that.
You don’t need to have the whole plan.
You don’t need to feel 100% ready.
You just need to be willing to stop ignoring it.
If you would like to explore what something different might look like, let’s hop on a call.
It’s OK to be afraid.
It’s OK to doubt you can actually make a change.
What’s not OK is pretending everything’s OK when you heart is telling you there’s more out there for you.
What’s not OK is ignoring the breadcrumbs that your future self is sending you every single day. It’s up to you whether or not you follow them.
During our call, I will help you figure out WHY things have been feeling off lately.
I will help you get CLARITY on your next steps.
(This is my area of expertise and it’s what I love to do).
If you like, I can explain what it might look like to work together. (But I don’t have to do that).
You can book your slot HERE.
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It’s good to be back.
Love Abbey x
